This subject of marriage, I miss what marriage holds the love, care and more, it existed in my marriage, problem was other things existed too, and I believe I could trust again, but I don’t believe when I’m divorced I will ever find
someone who I could truly know enough to trust them again, it that makes any sense and then marry them. I read about the ways to find people, but I seem to have no interest and maybe it is because my divorce has gone on for so long,
almost 4 years.
When a person marries they make themselves vulnerable to the other person and I’m not sure I want to be vulnerable any more. I have my daughters to think about, and when I open my world to another I open their world to my dependent daughter. I can wish all I want that someone would want to act as a real dad to her, but the truth is, I would be taking a very big chance, and maybe too big of a chance. She would have very little choice in who she would pick as a Dad and then how can I be sure? A person can put on an act and once married, the pain could begin again,
Over the last few years I’ve been watching many people and I noticed there are some really rotten single apples in the barrel, especially in the area I live, the good old boys! In reading I learn too much, I don’t want my daughter to be hurt or myself again.
We have a nice life her and I, not perfect, but nice. I could make and I will make some more improvement in our home once my divorce is over. Marriage isn’t all it’s cracked up to be.